cream-and-punishment:

Some of you didn’t have to wait 13 years for your dead lover to come back to life, keeping every single thing he left you as a precious treasure, playing Inquiry for all this time and never getting an answer, only to find him reincarnated in a low level gay cultivator and being friendzoned over and over again before finally fucking and it shows.

taigao:

First art of 2019. Happy new year !!

fucksora:

me: wants to buy video games the second they release

bank account: 

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hushedsins asked: Hey hamlet! Thank you for answering my question. Sorry for bothering you but another question popped up in my mind. Why did Blanca not choose Ash’s side immediately? In the manga, it was shown that he sometimes chose his side and then with the whole mercenaries thing he chose Dino’s side. Why did he do that?

hamliet:

No worries, you aren’t bothering me!! I love answering asks on Banana Fish. 

I think Blanca chose Dino’s side because he genuinely thought it was best for Ash. Blanca is someone who doesn’t want freedom in the same way as Ash: he binds himself to contracts and in many ways has given up on a life with love and hope post-Natasha’s death. Blanca is exactly what Ash does not want to become, but Blanca just wants to keep Ash alive more so than free. He’s never free, so he gives up on that and focuses on just keeping what he loves alive. 

Natasha he failed to keep alive, and so then it’s Ash and then Yut-Lung. It’s not a coincidence the terms of his contract with Yut-Lung are that he will only protect Yut-Lung, not murder on whim. 

He also pretty clearly chose to try to help Ash from within the system of contracts because it became clear to him that Ash was dying anyways in Dino’s care, and so to keep him alive he chose to help him. (I also don’t think he chose to protect Yut-Lung only to help Ash; he pretty clearly cared about Yut-Lung too.) 

“Private Opinion” really establishes how Blanca really does love and care about Ash, and tries to protect him by breaking Marvin’s arm and teaching him to protect himself, but what’s tragic is that Ash is 14 in this side story. By the time of “Angel Eyes,” Ash is in juvie, Blanca is gone, and it’s only been a year. Ash also tells Eiji at one point that this girl he had a crush on was killed when he was 14… I think it’s likely that Blanca saw what happened, immediately flashed back to himself and Natasha, and left after that because it was too hard for him. Blanca is absolutely projecting onto Ash and Yut-Lung:

But Blanca realizes in the end that to keep Ash alive he has to work outside of the system too, hence why he breaks his contract with Yut-Lung (but still does what he can to protect him). 

Blanca will break rules for people he cares about. Eventually. But he’s traumatized too and it takes him time to get over his cowardice and to realize that, for someone like Ash, there are things worse than dying: to stop projecting, really. 

But Blanca is still unable to overcome his own self-hatred, even though he knows it’s self-defeating. He thinks people like him and Ash should be alone, but in the end he can’t even agree with that: 

If Blanca had just said to Ash what he said to Yut-Lung… sigh. I really love Blanca’s character: he’s incredibly complex, and very, very morally gray, and I want to shake him. 

ninja-mullet:

Blanca: is a professional asassin who can make a flawless shot from a great distance even in bad weather conditions, fight you with bare hands and is honestly one of the most intimidating men alive

also Blanca: gets stuck in the fucking vent and looks like a helpless baby

Originally posted by yes-i-love-dreaming